advice from the creek.

"...the second kiss is always tougher than the first one. And that first kiss, it's the passionate one, it's the one fueled by desire, and attraction, and all of that. The second kiss is rational. You've got time to think about it, worry, and overanalyze. Most women, they prefer that first kiss, but I'm partial to the second one. Because it's about something more." -Betsy to Joey, Dawson's Creek, Season 2 Episode 1

As the snow is falling in Boone...again. I'm sitting in bed watching my Dawson's Creek box sets. I started Season 2 this morning. (Can I just mention that I've seen every Dawson's Creek episode at least 5 times?) In episode 1, the viewers witness Joey and Dawson's first kiss. Joey gets all flustered and worried that maybe they made a mistake or that she did something wrong. Her sister gives her that piece of advice. The advice that the second kiss is always the one that means the most and that she needs to be patient in order to receive that second kiss. Then it hit me, I am the Joey.

Things with Derek and I took a huge U-turn a few weeks back. Feelings were too strong at the time. Things had gotten really serious, really fast. Nothing went wrong it was just that we needed to take a few steps back in order to take steps forward in the future.

At first, I was really upset about that fact. Like cried myself to sleep-woke up with swollen eyes-constantly checking my phone-kind of upset. But I then came to my senses. I realized that I needed to get on with things. So I did. Derek and I continued with our friendship and tried to be as normal as possible. Well, now things are looking up again. Ever since all this happened, we've continued to study for our classes together and talk about once a day. But yesterday, I feel like we actually took a step forward again. Now, I just have to be patient and wait to see if we move forward again. This random 90s quote just might get me through this. But for now, the budding relationship between Dawson and Joey in episode 2 needs my attention. :)